Part of me wishes this update was better in some departments but there are many great things in the works. And it’s fall! Hands down, best time of the year.
It’s been about 10 months since I moved to Portland and over a year on the treacherous job hunt for an entry-level position. I’ve applied and reached out to over 100 companies/opportunities. I’ve had a handful of interviews. I’ve had triple the amount of rejection emails. Currently, there is a possible job in the works. I’m waiting to hear back for the second interview. So, for now, I will be praying to all the gods to work in my favor.
There have been days where I’ve questioned moving out here. Part because it reminds me so much of where I grew up, I was living in a big city and that’s where I feel I belong. A lot of it is my patience. I start to get restless when things don’t go the way I planned. And I have spent so much time trying to get into the right job and working my ass off for this so-called career. Making my resume spot on to only be offered an “unguaranteed position” as an intern. So you can see where my frustration comes from and why patience is wearing thin.
But I chose to move across the country in an attempt to try and get my life together out here. Doesn’t make much sense but I will say I do feel like I’m headed in the right direction. And slowly I am getting there.
This past weekend I had a glistening moment in my apartment where I finally felt at ease and cozy in my home (maybe I’ll do a fall post of all the items I got for my apartment?) It has taken me a while to adjust to this living situation and there have been many days where I rip this area to shreds. In a perfect world, I would have a lot more money and would be able to live out this lifestyle. But I don’t so I just have to work with what I got. One year later and I finally feel like I’m back to where I was but in better circumstances. Even if it’s not in a big city for now.
And to top that off, there’s a lot in the lineup for the upcoming months.
I was recently given a scholarship for a writing class this winter with a literary arts institute downtown. I’m pretty psyched about getting back into a class environment and being able to work on my craft.
Winter also means snowboarding season. It’s very likely that I will be investing in a season pass in hopes to become a better snowboarder and redeem last years insanely crazy and only trip to Mt Hood. When I lived in Michigan, 80% of the people I knew that boarded were dudes. Out here I’ve made friend with a handful of girlfriends that snowboard. Way cooler.
So in the meantime, I will be enjoying all things fall and pumpkin spice, until it’s Scorpio szn. Maybe by then, I’ll be a boss bitch in a new job or still slinging drinks at the bars, either way. There’s also a possible trip in the works for my birthday. So although I feel like things could be better, I’m very thankful.
The decisions we make, the paths we take, lead us to our current reality. Choose to learn from the hardships and demonstrate the gratitude for the blessing in our lives. I could let the “ideal” life and career absolutely destroy me but I think its best to not let it impact these positives things in my life. I have to trust myself that I have made the right decisions thus far and it will all work out.
Jane Theory 